.:. A new Me Perhaps .:.

Try listening to the song which I have uploaded.

Butterfly....

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I guess this name might be familiar to some of you - "NATASHA"

FLASHBACK

She used to be the girl whom had caused a lot of problems between me and Fazli

She used to be the girl who said this to me "Nasib baik aku dah ada matahir, kalau tak aku sapu matahir kau.." "You are a BITCH. I don't know how Fazli gets attracted to you."

I almost lost Fazli because of her. But I believed in Karma and what goes around always comes around.

Yesterday (28th Dec 2007 at 10am) we talked at msn. She begged me for forgiveness.

Natasha: Now I know how it felt like to have a third party in d relationship..

MiSsY: No one can feel the pain which you went through unless they go through the same thing as what you went through

Natasha: But mine, I only get to know what happen behind my back after a year.

MiSsY: Kadang-kadang apa kita buat kat orang balasan pada kita lebih teruk.

Natasha: How do I deal with a slut?

MiSsY: Just ignore the person..let her say what she wants. She will stop when shes tired. If you entertain her, it will hurt you more.

Natasha: I am not as strong as you.

MiSsY: If the person is meant for you, he will come back to you..you need to be patience. Fight for your right if there is a need to do so..

Natasha: Will you forget the past and be my friend?

MiSsY: I don't bear grudges. The past is a history, we have to learnt from the past and you must be becareful when handling tomorrow.

I told faz about she begging for forgiveness. Faz was very shocked. He asked me if he can msn her too.. Obviously you can. I don't have anything attached to you in which you have to seek permission.. I am the kind of person in which I never trust a person 100%.

Amin told me that I must becareful with both Faz and Natasha. Because Natasha had tried to destroy my relationship with Faz twice. Thus, Amin reminded me that I must always be prepared for any worst case scenario.

Kak Long says we must think positively. That is what I am trying to do. The scar that is still unhealed has slightly recovered since she said Sorry.I will try my best to think positively. Anyway shes only 18...

I know whatever happens I still have my Kak Long, Kak Ngah, Amin, Khairil to talk to.. Just like when I was down the other time..

I don't know why but I feel so scared...I am so afraid that I things might happen again..But I am giving them chance to prove to me that they have changed...

I learnt that live is short, its not a crime to give in to people.